I guess my intention with starting this blog was to connect with other people who are interested in similar subjects and showcase my photography. At some point I subconsciously decided to make it as honest of a reflection of my life as possible. A testament to everything I felt passionate about as a 23 year old, who was unsure of what to do in life. Somehow venting my frustrations, fears, and unhappiness became a therapy of sorts. I felt empowered by having a forum to be honest and let it all hang out without shame. As long as I typed it down I no longer had to carry it with me. I found solace in getting feedback from people I never met and knowing despite how alone I felt other people had struggled with the same thing. I was proud of the choices I made and the person I was becoming and wanted to share it with the people I love the most. Recently I was deeply hurt to hear some of my family members making negative comments about my behavior and speculating about some of the topics I discussed here. It's a funny thing when the people who are suppose to love you the most unconditionally are the ones quickest to judge. Despite being moderately annoyed, I'm glad I can provide a distraction from the unhappiness of other people's lives that they are able to find the time to pick apart mine and scour for gossip. All I can say in my defense is I am not a coward and I am unashamed. I regret nothing and apologize to no one. If passing judgement on me makes you feel better about yourself more power to you!
I regret that I am not ready for you
I guess my intention with starting this blog was to connect with other people who are interested in similar subjects and showcase my photography. At some point I subconsciously decided to make it as honest of a reflection of my life as possible. A testament to everything I felt passionate about as a 23 year old, who was unsure of what to do in life. Somehow venting my frustrations, fears, and unhappiness became a therapy of sorts. I felt empowered by having a forum to be honest and let it all hang out without shame. As long as I typed it down I no longer had to carry it with me. I found solace in getting feedback from people I never met and knowing despite how alone I felt other people had struggled with the same thing. I was proud of the choices I made and the person I was becoming and wanted to share it with the people I love the most. Recently I was deeply hurt to hear some of my family members making negative comments about my behavior and speculating about some of the topics I discussed here. It's a funny thing when the people who are suppose to love you the most unconditionally are the ones quickest to judge. Despite being moderately annoyed, I'm glad I can provide a distraction from the unhappiness of other people's lives that they are able to find the time to pick apart mine and scour for gossip. All I can say in my defense is I am not a coward and I am unashamed. I regret nothing and apologize to no one. If passing judgement on me makes you feel better about yourself more power to you!
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